Two Years Ago

I really can't believe it has been two years since I lost one of my dearest friends, Cindy. I still miss her so much! It's funny how someone who was my roommate for only one year came to be such an important person in my life. We had so much in common. We had the same major, took a few of the same classes, the same people drove us cRaZy and we could talk and be together for hours. There were a few times when, I think, we spent too much time together and I was the one who needed some space--but she was always forgiving and my best friend. We would ride the UTA bus (we didn't have cars) from our apartment to the Mall and have a great time. I remember one time using a car (I think it belonged to her relatives in Sandy), but we drove it home from their house one weekend. Neither one of us felt that comfortable driving on I-15 so we were a little nervous--ha ha. We laughed so hard about how we had wished we could drive anywhere and now we had the chance and we just wanted to get home! We had this one roommate, Stephanie, that made us laugh all the time. Not that she was trying to be funny but because she was SO airheaded. Anytime we got together after BYU, we would always talk about how we wondered what happened to good ol' Steph. Cindy and I talked all the time, I think we both felt like we had been a part of each other's childhood! I grew to love her family and friends that she talked so fondly of. I was so lucky to get to travel to Phoenix for Thanksgiving that year to spend the holiday with her family. We had such a great time!

I miss knowing I can just call, text, send a facebook message or email to my friend, Cindy. I never thought it would be so hard to lose a friend. She meant so much to me and I always treasured our friendship. I've come across messages she has left on old posts or old emails, posts on my facebook wall that mean so much more to me now.

Today in Relief Society we had our VT Conference--the theme was "My Sister, My Friend" I immediatly thought, oh no, I'm not going to be able to make it through this meeting without being emotional. My thoughts were on Cindy the whole time. I did a pretty good job until the closing hymn was announced....Each Life That Touches Ours For Good...it was then that I became too emotional to sing. I always think of Cindy when I sing the third verse, "When such a friend from us departs,We hold forever in our hearts A sweet and hallowed memory, Bringing us nearer, Lord, to thee"

I hold Cindy in my heart forever--I miss and love her so much and am so grateful for the memories I have and the influence that she has had on my life.